I am falling in love

I used to be this pastor guy in Korea.  It was a small little fellowship, we had a great time.  I remember that we would go out to bars and places that we thought we might find foreigners.  We met a bunch of people that eventually made some good choices to want to know Him more.  I preached a lot for the little music stand pulpit that we had, and often times I would use the words, "...do you know that He waits by your bedside every night and watches you sleep, just to see if you will good morning to Him when you wake up?"  Well last night I kind of woke up and felt something wonderful happening in the spirit.  I felt the pra yers of people lifting me up.  It was kind of awesome.  I felt someone singing and while the people were singing I could see the L rd dancing to the sounds.  I felt Him come close to me and sing to me.  I am feeling the love of this romance that has been dead in my heart for so long.  I am letting Him finally love me. 

I have done some stupid things in the past that I know really hurt Him.  But the most worst and most stupid thing I did was think that I needed to do something to be forgiven or loved or cherished as a son again.  I only needed to accept it.  I feel silly sometimes.  I cannot wait to wake up tomorrow and say good morning to Him.  

I am turning 30 in a couple of weeks.  Kind of cool. 

The Plan

The last 36 hours have been kind of amazing.  I feel all kinds of love from Dad lifting my spirits.  I have felt Him whispering to me.  I took a little time last night and went to bed early before I was tired.  I just stayed quite in the dark for a while and listened.  I wanted to play my guitar and sing Him a song, I wanted to write down how I felt, I wanted....to do anything but listen the last few times I felt Him wanting to spend time with me.  I just felt so great last night as I finally went to sleep.  I woke up with renewed vision for my future.  I was encouraged today as I rolled out of bed and took my dog out.  As the morning went on I continued to listen to His voice.  I have some very specific and clear objectives.  I will be writing these down and sharing them soon.

Pra e for me.  It is tough to live a life overseas.  The harvest....the workers.  Therefore we must...ask the Harvest Chief...

Valentine THis

I am in Wenzhou now.  Wenzhou is a small economic city in Zhejiang province.  It is nice right now for January outside.  The other day we walked aroung in shorts and t shirts and were sweating pretty good.  We were walking for exercise so sweat is ok.  I found this pizza stand about 5 miles from where I am staying.  I made a deal with everybody that I would not eat pizza unless I walked there to order it.  Thursday is pizza day at our apartment.  So I am excited about my walk today.  It is the best pizza I have had outside the Tri-State area.  And, it tastes a little better than some of those places too. 

Spiritually I am doing pretty good.  I was feeling a little crazy becuase of the forced cirumstances of a job change from English teacher to business person.  I am always up for a challenge, but I have a lot of work to do to get ready.  We are in the process now of choosing the exact type of business to start.  More to come with the business talk.  I was not thinking, "be a business man."  I like teaching, it is easy, I am great at, but I need to follow Dad.  Following Him has made this transition a lot easier than I thought it would be.  I need to go buy new clothes and all that stuff that comes with doing business.  I am way out of my league here.  But I can adjust.

I teach Sunday school to a class of about 25 four year olds.  It is out of control.  I love it.  It really gives me the opportunity to feel I am doing something.  I have been here 5 years.  I know that my biggest outreach is the people I am with everday, but it is always nice to be able to have my selfish need of touching lives in an evangelical nature met.  I am sure if anyone is still reading I will get a lecture about that last line.  The people that I am with on a daily basis sometimes dont make decisions for Hi m.  So what?  I just give up on them.  No.  Having the mi nistry served on a silver platter is nice.  We are going to study Adam and Eve next week.  I am excited about that. 

Ok cool.  I feel done writing for now.  byebye

America is a wonderful place.  I totally forgot what it is like here.  I am going to go hunting in the morning with my dad.  I don't really want to kill anything, but I really like to be out in the woods and try to outsmart the animals.  They are so keen to the environment around them.  I have not seen anything the last few times I have just say out int he woods...but I like to freeze.

I am going back to the states in a couple of weeks.  Once back I am going to be updating on here quite often. 

It is Wednesday in China...I am enjoying the day off and I just woke up.  I have been thinking a lot lately about stuff.  The Jeep money came in and I will go shopping in a little while to finish getting the truck ready.  Praise Him.  The best part of life for me is that I have made some major decisions the last few weeks.  These are the things I have decided...

1.  I will be leaving Beijing and heading down to Wenzhou to start a company.

2.  I will walk in the light.  There is no darkness there.  There is no sin left to take root of you are open and honest...so I have no more secrets and great accountability.  I will miss this in Wenzhou. 

3.  I am going to be in America the whole month of November.  AHHHHH.  I am so excited.  If anyone want to see me, please lets do it.  I will not have the money to travel around.  I am going to try and find a part time job so I can at least get to Tulsa once...but I don't know.  If anyone wants to chip in and buy a plane ticket for me...I will accept that.  haha.  Dave